She Wants Me to Leave 3rd Time .....EA or not EA?

[isittoolate]

Two days on:

I did a 55 mile bike ride yesterday morning with 6 or 7 cycling buddies from the club.
W went on a walk with the kids scouts club. I could have changed my gal to join them but decided not to.

I have had a heavy head cold and blocked painful sinuses for the last few days and W has asked about my health several times which is nice.

Also W suggested a James Bond afternoon watching Casino Royale and Quantum of Solace - her idea.
W is usually a little down in the morning - thinking about FIL but perks up in the afternoon after exercise.

In the evening watching Quantum of Solace I gave her another deluxe foot rub - this one had her cooing/ moaning with pleasure. W puts her bare foot next to me on the couch ready for me to begin but without asking - like a covert contract. NB her foot was placed very close to my crotch, and I was incredibly turned on!!

Also I thanked SIL by text for reaching out to me. I said I will always try to do my best for W and the boys, I believe in my family and marriage and will never quit on either. I can't change W or her feelings. I can only work on myself and strive to be a better man,husband, and Father. she replied 'you will always be welcome here and at MIL's, and you don't need to change yourself, we like you as you are x'

A nice text.

Today I am a little down, W also and she turned to me for a little sob and a hug this morning. W then went for a 3 hour gym session. I then did a 5 mile run as that always perks me up. I feel very run down, stress, lack of sleep and the head cold. I need a good nights sleep. 7 hours continuous sleep would be a revelation.

Tonight we watch ' the Sound of Music live' followed by another James Bond movie - Skyfall. Jesus it's hard to live up to that guy!!

After Skyfall we will probably go to watch Spectre - probably next weekend.