Left, the best thing I ever did was accept Jesus into my heart and through him, thanking God. The second best thing I did was to admit I HAD a problem and to get help for it. My wife and I had a tremendous fight one night about a month ago and of course I had been drinking (which I have since quit) and I got verbal and physical with her. The vision of seeing my wife scramble in fear out of the drivers side of her expedition and running up the road to a friends house will haunt me for ever. I then had a five mile walk to my house at night in the freezing cold and we live 20 miles out of town, and I was bawling my head off and asking myself what had I done. I knew then and there I needed help and quite honestly I also knew that my wife had had it. Although I am not happy about the circumstances that made me get help, in a way I am glad that it happened because if not then she and I would still be miserable and I would not have gotten the help I needed and I honestly believe I would have eventually commited suicide because I had been having those thoughts. A person has to want to get help, you can't make them.
"Anyone who is among the living, has hope." (Eccl 9:4)
