Im commited to my marriage and have decided to remain loyal & faithful until its decided either way as thats part of my beliefs & ideals Ive decided im going to process a divorce come july (1yr ) if nothing happens Im going to stick to my 180s and keep detaching and getting a life Im not going to pursue my W ive commited to counselling and expressed a desire to have a better marriage im aware i cant make someone commit or love me its a choice and commitment
Im growing and aware of my boundaries and my own actions and my counsellor thinks im going to be better prepared for reconciliation & if not then take that into the future .
Its been a learning curve i can see where i was needy and insecure at the start of seperation and let emotions dictate my actions. The periods of no contact and counselling have helped me see things from afar. I made mistakes and wore the constant blame and now i can see i made mistakes, got help and leant its not all my fault.
2015 has been a crappy year but im moving foreard and im would like my W to be part of my life but i can see i dont need her to complete me. Brad.k
Me: 45 w:45
M:6yrs T:9 Separated aug 15 no contact dec 15 come back july 16 I filed for closure aug 16
