Looking forward to the new year

[JulieH]

So I do feel christmas went well. Husband came by in morning and we caught up a bit. We were friendly. No anger sensed in either of us. I have missed him past few days and I am noticing that I have been less angry. (For those that haven't been keeping up,I have been consumed with anger for a long time so this is a big relief for me and I hope it's long lasting) He gained a lot of weight and I can tell he is depressed and sad. Other thing I notice is he can't even look at me when he has to give me check for CS. I don't know if he is angry or embarassed about that. I would assume it's anger.

I ended up having kids give him a couple of little gifts and a kite that they could play with him to open at their 2nd christmas the following day. He did not give me anything and told me he would make up for it on my birthday, but I told him I never give to receive and it was just for the kids to have something to give him. I didn't feel bad at all and it was not taken as pursuing.

I for one am looking forward to putting this year behind me. I need to get back to GAL and eating healthy and exercising. Like everyone else, the holidays just add for me the stress of having to buy lots of junk people don't need and having to resist delicious home baked goods. (Which I never can) the only fun part for me is the children's activities.

Great news for me. The other day I started reading again. And the topic has nothing to do with divorce or relationships. This is a big step for me, as I have been a bit obsessed with my situation and have not been able to gather interest in anything else. (I don't even watch tv or movies anymore) so I am hoping that means I'm getting my old self back.