I'm with you here Gmum. Really not looking forward to NY. First one spent without H in 19 years, first one where I don't with my H happy new year in 15 years, the list goes on and on. Added to the fact that it's not a night for celebrating. What is there to celebrate? The outlook for 2016 doesn't look to rosy - H will file for divorce, I may have to move out of the family home and my kids and I will continue to be devastated. Planning on going to bed very early and missing the whole thing.
