If you had given me the account I just gave, from what I have learned over the years is...people are selfish; impulsive; blind to their own actions in the moment, but have crystal clear vision in hindsight; want to be worshipped, adored, and made to feel special; and can behave very, very, badly because of this.
I hate gossip shows and magazines because they take what is out there on camera or video and interpret it in the most dramatic and unflattering way because that's what people want to hear. I have had news stories and gossip written about family members and friends that was later proven to be untrue, but damaging all the same.
So, I immediately jumped to the conclusion that an affair was happening right there in font of me and attacked. I know that is what most people will do. But that hindsight...I wonder if that quacking duck-like thing might have been a parrot, a loon, or a goose? The problem is...I don't know.
H has said at one point that he wanted to be done with me because he was tired of hurting me. I am interested in seeing if I can get past that point, the being hurt when ever I think of them together. Is she just a friend, someone he needed when he felt he didn't have me? Is he just another guy friend to help her or hang out with when her H is not available? The conference/ski trip thing really has me wondering. I can take it at face value (affair) or leave it open because I really don't know and risk being called stupid. But it really doesn't matter at this point, really. I was hurt, am hurt, just the same. And I have an H that still says he did nothing but ski and do meals with her, as if that makes it ok.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
