Now, that's what Christmas is all about...being w/your children. It doesn't matter how big or small, expensive or not so expensive the gift is...it's what comes from the heart. I say you have had a very nice Christmas w/your children. Enjoy every minute of it. Time waits for no one.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.