Personally I just think it's the codependency. I had similiar feelings thoughts in the beginning but the shock of an A forced me past it. It was painful and violent but I survived. For those of us with no other partners before our W's it's not just loosing our W, its losing everything. We really have based our entire existence on this M. It would be easier to rip off 1/2 our limbs than the attachment to them. We base so much of who we are on the R that we know nothing else much less who we are. Theres this black void of unknown in front of us that's full of crippling fear. He thinks if his W comes back it can all work, it can all be better and it can be fixed. There is no alternative other than than the fear or the M. Or so we think when the fear is still blinding us.
Last edited by Fogg; 12/27/1510:47 PM.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
