Thank you, NYGal.

I try to remind myself often that right now in this moment I am ok. I have a roof over my head, food, clean clothes etc.

Thanks for the link. I get ambivalent about reading some of these happy ending posts. They give me hope, but I also find that the situation never seems quite as hopeless as my own to begin with. With my H there is no doubt. Just moving on. He's head over heels for the OW and only has eyes for her.

I'm just so so sad today.