It seems you are never gonna stop spinning. I can see the same questions being raised again and again. Look, let's be brutal, your M is over, your W is cake eating and you're facilitating. We all know the pain you're in but I don't know what anybody can say that'll make you realise that you can't fix this, you can only manage the here and now.
Everybody want to help you, but the best thing you can do is help yourself.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015