October 11

[Bfice3]

So, and another update. I called her 3 or 4 times this morning, and she called me back. We talked for about 40 minutes. It was pretty gross. Mostly me apologizing. Apologizing for being a bad husband, for pushing her away, that I don't want our marriage to be over, that I'm sad, and this all [censored], for going in the house, and gross gross gross.

She apologize for being wayward, lol. I told her that she is wayward wife and she looked it up and agrees. She knows that's what she is doing.

I just have to now start really focusing on practicing how to GAL and go dark with respect to her. I have to do it for me, not to get her back, I know. I don't know if I believe that right now. And, I'm going to try and tell myself that its okay, but that I have to start acting now.

I can't continue to linger like this. She's making her choices and living her life, I have to do the same. Be a man, be strong, be independent. Be a dad to my kids. Those are good things. I can do those things. I can do those things without a wife.

Anyway, thank you Sandi, thank you Azzork, thank you Rosa, and thank you to anyone else reading this.