dday, rebuilding

[dday]

Fogg. I do ok, until I see stbx. Then I am spinning for a couple days. I don't ask about her life, or anything for that matter. I have recently stopped looking for her at kids events, this is more of a conscious thing. She will still come up to me. Every time. I don't know if she is trying to maintain my attachment or what. She will either come sit by me, or come to me as soon as it is over, or start texting if I make it out before she can find me.

So, letting go... the action part...I feel I have done that. I don't try to pursue. Don't call text start conversations or extend them either.

I think I will always have a bit of hope. I don't feel that I need her, I do still want her and the family back together.

As far as detaching/dropping the rope... I know what it is, know it's importance, haven't accomplished it. Maybe it's not time then?

As far as d. I have signed, I'm sure she did as excited as she was for it. Waiting on the judge to sign off.