dday, rebuilding

[dday]

Thank you all. Just a depressing time of year I guess. And very rainy to boot.

Some days I feel like I am doing pretty good, others not so much. This is one of the latter.

I'm still not sure what I want to do with my life right now. Most will be maintaining status quo. Same job, love on my boys, etc. Probably build a house, and get a truck. The truck thing is actually pretty big for me. Haven't done anything for myself in years. It will be nice to have something to be proud of. (Other than my kids.)

I think I will put together a bucket list. That could be fun. Try to knock off some of the closer and easier ones. Visiting Ireland and Germany are 2 for a much later date. Hope to go fishing on the great Lakes this summer. That would be one.

Az. I know that to have a chance at r, I have to let go. I guess that's why I stated that. And you are right, I can't do both.

Mu, I love your stories. As to W change, it is the selfishness I refer to. I hope it works it's way out of her.

Sotto, I thought I dropped the magic bullet idea, but you noticed I haven't. Hopefully some things in this post will help me get through the awkward stages.

Fogg, Thank you. I guess I keep thinking I should be farther along than I am. And it varies day to day. I do want the pain to end. Maybe part of the allure to dating is to aid in healing. Boost confidence and take my mind off other things. Part of me is ready, other part is unsure I suppose. Never truly know until I get out there.

Thanks for checking on me and thanks for 2x4s!