Gmum - nothing about a WAS is normal. H is so stuck on himself, it's all about him and his feelings, his wants, his needs. If he were in a less selfish frame of mind?
Of course he wouldn't serve you with papers during a holiday and right before your birthday! Only a heartless creep would do that. He's not able to see outside himself and his affair fog. I'm not telling you this to make excuses for him, because his timing is despicable. I'm telling you this to remind you it has so very little to do with you. It's all about H.
I have a feeling he was nice once. That man would never have done this to you. It just shows you how very powerful whatever these WAS are dealing with, to blind them to common courtesy and kindness.
Go ahead and cry, get it out. You know this will happen again before it's all over, and it's best not to bottle up feelings. So much better to deal with them, and work your way through them. You're growing. H is, well, shrinking. LOL His quality as a human being is going backwards, while you just continue to improve.
Remind yourself H is, for all intents and purposes, out of his mind. He's reverted to a teenage version of himself, and as such, doesn't really pay attention to little details like timing. He's not doing it to make the situation worse. He's just doing it because he feels like it. All about him.
Hang in there, okay?
I am not looking forward to New Year's Eve, by the way. Last year, H gave me a kiss so scorching I can feel it even now. This year? I'll be at home by myself, and trying NOT to remember how very short time ago it was that H still loved me. I will be posting here right along with you!
