Hi Gmum, I am glad to play a role in your enlightenment. I do not have the wisdom to create these thoughts. I am simply holding my torch so that you can see them. Please comment on any of my posts sometimes I lose my way on the path.
Hey hey PP, read my last post on my last thread, there you will find the answer to your post's wish.
The subtle shift in my wife's has continued. I have adjusted to this new normal. It is relieving to know that she is not so tense and guarded in her self imposed exile. A chance physical encounter with her cooking on Christmas Day reinforces my belief that she is not warming to me but more comfortable and less guarded with her choice. I will take credit for some of her evolution to this point since my behavior played a part in her disposition.
My wife backed up while cooking as I was walking by. When she did and the back of her upper arm slowly bumped into my forearm. She jerked forward like I was on fire. My first thought was that her skin is so soft, it felt so good. I truly miss her. It appears that she does not want to have any physical contact with me. I accept that this is how she feels and will respect it. It is disappointing for me but expectable.
So I am married to a woman who is trying to decide if she wants to divorce me, does not love me, does not wear her ring, sleeps in a different bed but now seems relaxed enough to talk briefly with me. The glass is half full. I sit here smiling.
