Recent Hurricane 2

[NateG79]

Thanks Sandi. As always, great insight. To be honest, GAL is not my problem. When I don't have my little one, I often have things to do. I have lots of friends, and was always very social and active, except for this last year when I fell into the marriage rut. I have plans for New Years. My sister will be visiting from Dallas, and we're going to go out and do some things together. My problem is realizing I have other emotions besides anger. I've never dealt with these kinds of emotions before, I didn't even realize I had them. It's changed my perspective on many things.

Music is a big deal for me. I've been a drummer since I was 10 yrs old, and can play multiple instruments. I've been trying to get back into performing live, but where I live, it's pretty dry for talent, or for the types of things I'm into. I gave up playing a few years ago when my music career fizzled out, and it's always left a bad taste in my mouth. I loved playing live, it was the ultimate high for me. It's been a huge piece that I've been missing for a long time. I got my drums out of storage, and started just banging around on my own, which has helped.

I wanted nothing more than to move back to Dallas in this next year as I have sooooooooo many friends there, and most of them are musicians, I could have easily gotten back into it there. It's caused me pain that because of this situation, that dream seems to have been shattered. I would never move away from my daughter. Sometimes I feel by what's happening in this situation, my W has essentially condemned me to staying here out of her own selfishness. Not a good feeling for me.