So my wife has been around more often for the last few days and has been more involved at the house. She has always loved this time of year and I was thinking that she might be having second thoughts about our MR. She still slept in the guest room each night but was very sweet and friendly during the day and around the kids. Then yesterday after the kids opened their Christmas presents she said she needed to get out for a while because it was all too much. When she came back I told her I love our family and I love her. We both retreated to the bedroom and cried for awhile and she said she has been trying to reconnect with me during this time but just didn't have the same feelings anymore. She feels like it is over. On Christmas Day no less. I told her that I would not stand in the way of her happiness and that I was willing to try and work on us. She completely withdrew after that so I went off to visit with some other family and friends.
Today we were to meet up at the IL's house. I left the house early and told her that I would meet them there at the specified time. When I got there and saw everyone and W and the kids I just welled up and broke down again. I thanked everyone and apologized for having to leave. I didn't want to ruin everyone else's good time so I went home to be alone for awhile. I hate myself for not being able to keep it together for the kids.
M: 39 W:38 D: 11 S: 7 T: 18 M:13 I suspect problem: 8/15 ILYB: 9/15 Never quit on love I ask her to leave:10/15
