I don't want to be a part-time wife or booty call for him. In time I want to have a fully engaged partner. By no means are we there yet at all. I live 2 hours away from him and I have no intention of moving closer any time soon. I really don't know how it will all work out, but I have faith that we can figure it out together. For now I'm working on my own stuff. My schooling, my health, my children, my animals.
I will not step into his life and try to fix it. I will listen and validate and encourage him.
Hopefully sooner than later MC is a must. I will not go back to the marriage we had. No way, no how!!! I know I've grown from this ordeal, I hope he has too. There has to be a better way for us to communicate.
Thank you V and Ancaire for your concern.
I am happy, but going into this with both eyes open. Very cautious!! Not dropping everything and running to him. Not stopping my life that I so painstakingly built back up from the ashes of my M. I forgive him for the things he did and said. I think I understand him a bit better now. Can't fix him, only he can fix himself.
Lots to think about! Or maybe not think at all. Let things unfold and deal with thing as the come.
Now.....out to brave the masses for Boxing Day shopping.
Wish me luck!
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
