"I know I have apologized many times to my H, but need to start working on forgiving myself as I find I can start to put too much responsibility on me. I have to remind myself it took two of us to get here."
This resonates with me. I was on the phone the other day talking to my brother and he told me that marriages are a two way street. I acknowledged that and said that I knew that and am attempting to fix my mistakes. He said, "No E, I mean they're a two way street." I said I know...and so on. It took four tries for him to get through to me that he was talking that I was doing all the work and my H none.
I guess it's easier to take the blame because then at least I feel some control?
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M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out