Today is Christmas. Anxiety has taken hold. I made an excuse to leave the house. Its been very difficult acting like this is like any other Christmas. Emotions have taken over and I need to vent.
I need to open up the conversation on where we go from here. We have not discussed our marriage situation in 2 months. I want to open the lines of communication. We need to discuss what the future holds when the school year is over. Living arrangements, financial matters. I know it would be a step back but I want so much to ask my wife If its too late to save the marriage. Can we work through the difficulties?
I am so committed to my marriage, but I fear there is more to our problems than what she has expressed. Is she involved with someone else? Is she hiding the truth from me. I have these feeling based on the way she is very guarded when she reads her texts.
It has been a very tough day and I am at my wits end. I need to talk to my wife. Once I do I can get a better picture on what more I can do.
Don't count the days, make the days count. Mohammad Ali
