Gosh I can't believe the moods swings I had ( could I be suffering from me menopause?) today! Was down most of the day, but as soon as H left I was better. I did give him a kiss on the cheek to thank him for my little present.
I also asked him if he could have the kids on Monday as it's Bank Holiday here and he said yes! I was surprised by his reply as I tought he had something planned with OW and really did it more to annoy him than anything else!
I have been invited by one of his sister on Sunday , so most of his family will be there. I'm going because the kids love their auntie. No idea of H is going to be there as he said he's going for a Xmas drink tomorrow (ie him being completely drunk)!.
I have noticed that when he isn't around I'm finding life easier, so now praying for the house to sell as in my new one I'll have the right to stop him entering it!
Detaching is really hard. My head knows what I should do but my heart is ruling big time As my IC says it's a constant battle between my heart and head!
How on Earth do I still love someone who is childish, immature, able to cheat on his wife, blames his wife for his unhappiness, admitted he saw changes in me but got told by his IC that I wouldn't be able to sustain my changes!
So far my dear H I have been able to change and sustain it. I'm look after myself, I'm less stressed. Still work in progress in being more positive. Still work to start on being able to laugh and avoiding being cold! I truly believe that once I have done the negativity, the last two ones will follow easily as they are related with self confidence.
