Struggling

[Imlucky]

I made it thru christmas i didnt contact her i did have a bit of a cry missing the stuff we used to do yes blokes do have feelings too!

I think im going to have to accept i told her i wanted to work on our marriage and let it go
I didnt contact her for 3 weeks then she came to my new unit for dinners and overnight stays and more has thrown me i didnt discuss R i just went with the flow, the stupid thing is she initiated all the hugs and kisses while i was tryingnot to overwhelm
I think this has set me back i have my IC appt on monday ill run it past her

I think im going to have to maintain no contact for my wellbeing
I think that will give her space will prevent me making things worse or appear im pushing her or being needy

Its good to be involved in a community that gets it all my friends dont get it and throw in all the usual cliches of plenty of fish blah blah blah.
I think i need to focus on my issues and if we dont work out ill be in a better place for the future , lll at least know i remained committed and tried



Brad


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