I'm going to chime in too, I guess. I'm experiencing anxiety for the first time (at least to this life sucking extent). I finally realized my insurance will pay for massages so I scheduled one for tomorrow. I hope it helps me to breathe better cuz I feel like someone is squeezing me like a catsup bottle! Might have to try yoga as well.
You all are amazing at supporting and sharing tips, advice, warnings and your stories as they unfold. I'm learning now that just coming to these boards during low or anxious times is calming as well as enlightening.It really helps to know how not alone we are in this. Thank you to all.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
The physical repercussions of this surprise me. I actually take Xanax when it get really bad, which I don't like.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
Physical repercussions? Yeah. Tell me about it. Awful. I'm like you, Becky, and completely surprised by how this experience not only tore me apart mentally, but physically, too. I guess there was a really good reason my cardiologist said, back before all this started, that living as stress free a life as I could would be hugely important to managing the congestive heart failure. I couldn't have imagined back then the reality of the damage the stress has done to my heart, literally, now. I have no idea how many years of life H literally robbed from me by his selfish actions, but I'm looking at heart surgery, so it's going to be more than a few.
Ciluzen - I saw your post just above Becky's. We're really glad you're here. Sharing what's going on in your life with the members of this board is great for helping anxiety, too. We all want to do the right thing. I'm really, truly jealous that your insurance covers massages! Lucky lady! That'll help a lot. Let us know how it went.
In the spirit of GAL, last night I went to a concert with a new friend. We had a good time. The concert was at a casino concert hall. After word we watch the band at the casino lounge. Interesting people watching but not really my thing.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
I am so tired of being upbeat and friendly. I want to tell my H exactly how I feel. When do I get to that? Why does he get to do exactly what he wants with no consequences? He is friendly but detached. I'm friendly but detached. It's just so wrong.
On a sad note, my step son met H at my house to pick up a vehicle and he didn't even come in and say hello.
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Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming