I have typed messages to you, elly cherry, mut, roiste, vanilla and even cali...but deleted them, they just didnt feel right, maybe too much anger in there...too much frustration and doubt from me. I will revisit those posts this week to see why i felt that way.
Went as a chaperone to s13 science club overnight in indiana and as doon as we got back, we left and drove up to minnisotta last week to visit a friend whose husband passed away this past fall. We all had a great time. This week tho wife and both boys sick and house has not been 'warm'.
Try todo what i can to help them all feel better, but nothing reaally to do to truly help. I always get down because i cant make them better, you know the control freak mantra.
Qe exchanged gifts yesterday, i really liked the things she bought for me You could tell she put thought into them and shopped early (not last minute or no thought like some years, or at all for others).
I will do a reflection post in the next week about this past year and how truly blessed i am to have my family with me.
For now i want to express some feelings of gratitude, i need to put thigs into a better light than thebway i have been feeling last coupke of weeks. (i dont know why i am crying right now but i am):
× family still together
× great job when appreciates me still, even in my current diminished capacity.
× my familys overall health is strong, (colds are colds). My mom going through some $hit, but she looked better last night.
× two beautiful children i get to wake up and see every day.
× wife is trying, certainly feels like it some days.
× grateful for you all to help carry me during thiae times i am just not strong enough to go alone. Thank you.
