Struggling

[Imlucky]

Hello forum

Im not sure how to write this all down. Im seperated from my wife im not sure how you time it. We sold our house to get out of debt and i went and got my own place to live

I respecting her request to be left alone and i went 3wks until she came to my unit. We did stuff together and txted while she was on school camp. When she returned about 10 days ago i got i dont know what i want and to be left alone. Im respecting that and im struggling as its my first xmas alone.

I do want to save my marriage. Ive been getting counselling/coaching and my w has shown interest in what is discussed and what im learning

Ive been doing the 180 list and im GAL and setting goals for next year

My counsellor has suggested that i remain faithful and loyal until something has been decided either way. I dont want a divorce and would like to have a better relationship. I know it takes two to make it

My mantra everyday is im only responsible for my own actions . My wife has commented on noticing changes in my behaviour and attitude.
Its hard to know what to do when its radio silence .

I think i need to maintain no contact so i dont look needy or begging or argue

Thank you
Brad