Taking back control of my life 3

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Oh Rouky I hurt for you. You are so kind and want so badly to save your marriage. You are trying so hard and it doesn't seem to matter to your husband. Maybe that will help you see that your husband having walked away really has nothing to do with you. It is completely about him in spite of what he has told you. I know that your situation is a little different in that he spends time with the children at your house and I wish that you could change that. Christmas is different in that it is about family and you and I wish that our family was intact but it is not to be at this time. You are required to have the wisdom of Solomon at this time but that is quite unfair. I have decided that I would let my wife chose when she would have Christmas with S13 and I am doing everything that I can to make things as normal as possible at this time. She chose to keep him Christmas Eve and bring him home in the afternoon tomorrow. I guess it will be Christmas morning when you read this and I wish that I was more help but I am praying for you. See your counselor as soon as possible and talk to her about the holidays and birthdays and try to work through the pain of all of it. I hope that you hear from your family tomorrow and can find a few moments of happiness. I will be with you in spirit and I will read your name several times tomorrow to remind myself of your suffering. God Bless you and have a Merry Christmas!