Your thread is jam-packed with deep thoughts. What do you do to have fun?
i love that these brilliant people offer the greatest advice ever. I am so happy they can show you some paths for inner discovery. You will go far if you can follow the advice.
You also need to enjoy life, or as much of it as you can. What is it you enjoy the most?
Ah lovely Mona52
This is the perfect post, I had been thinking the same for myself recently. I know my propensity to intensity and deep thinking. And I know that is stops me accessing my lighter side, which is indeed rather developed by likely under represented here on the boards.
I am not particulary light-hearted on my own thread, although I am easily able to recognise my flaws and laugh at how well constructed and absurbed some of them actually are. I am not past being able to take the p*ss out of myself. I'm not that precious. Lol
I am probably my most light-hearted and relaxed self on U-turns thread. I am probably the closest to being the real me there. V's thread brings out another aspect of myself that I don't generally share on my own thread, V's word play has me enthralled at times and her threads over the year that I have been here has brought some lightness with the exchange of tea parties and cheeeese we have indugled in.
I do however digress from your original question and observation.
I have been thinking of late that I potentially give an impression of being a complete sad sack, an intense and depressive person. I guess I don't tend to talk about my external life,because I have quite an intense internal life.
Fun is challenging for me - I don't do fun - play is very challenging for me. I find it challenging to let go. But I am a person who seeks pleasure. I'm likely a bit of hedonist - well for those that follow the stars I'm about as Taurean as you can get. Lol
A couple of weekends ago a male friend text me, early morning, like 6.45am early and asked if I wanted to go for a walk. It was the perfect morning for it. The weather was amazing, the park we walked around was beautiful, tree lined avenues, we stopped and took pictures of the sheep and cows in the park. I have a wee obsession about cows from days of riding my bicycle through the countryside. I love those moments of complete down time chilling with a person and having great conversation. We went for coffee afterwards. I love coffee, I mean really good coffee. It's a pleasure. I love the social aspect of meeting someone for exercise with the reward of coffee and a catch up at the end.
I have another friend whom we have a unexpressed agreement that we take a small driving road trip one Sunday per month. The goal is to be out of the city, and experiencing our home town as tourists. The goal is to take as many photographs as we can, with the hope that a few that are somewhat decent to post on FB for us to boast about our adventure. If we can discover a new, interesting and tasty place to eat and of course drink Coffee, then that is a bonus. Last Sunday we went to a place called Maraetai (in Maori is means a meeting place by the sea). It is quite beautiful. We walked the beach and drove the tree-lined roads. Summer in that part of Auckland is magical. Google Pohutukawa's NZ beaches and you will likely get a taste of what I mean.
I had a lovely man take me out last Sunday for drinks and dinner and he surprisingly grabbed me and gave me the most extraordinary kiss as we traveled the lift where we has parked the car. It was very nice if not a surprise.
I had a moment this week that brought PP to mind. I guy I dated in the UK when I lived there in 2004-2006, popped up a told me he always regretted not take things in more committed direction with me. He told me, he just wasn't in the right place to meet someone like me. Interesting PP. Given my comments on your thread. We have messaged back and forward a couple of times since then.
Last night I baked a Ham for Christmas Dinner at my flat. My flat mates are all foreign nationals and their urban family (their friends, other foreign nationals - NZ has been overwhelmed by the Irish) are all at my house for Christmas Dinner. The flat will be filled to overflowing. After work tonight I plan to go home and make Pavlova (a marshmellowy/merigue type dessert) that is quintessentially New Zealand. Google it and try it you will love it.
I will visit my family tomorrow and I will visit my best friend and her baby daughter, who I am a serogate aunty to. My friend is my go to person, she understands me like no one else. We don't see each other often now she has her daughter but our time together is always positive and fun. My friend is the life of any party and she lightens me completely.
I have some plans for the new year to develop my ability to have fun and play. I know it's an area of growth and development that is needed. I GAL in very small ways. I think I need to widen the net a bit more, and step out of my comfort zone. 2015 was about getting well from the depression and anxiety. I feel like I'm almost there.
2016 there will be a lot of change I feel. Watch this space Mona.
Thank you for interest and care of me. I really do appreciate you posting on my thread.
