Ok. Briefly spoke with husband and he was very reasonable. Its good I didn't make some of those comments I was thinking. He said that he wants to do what's best for the kids so that it's not traumatic for them, but would also like to see them.
He suggested that he can just come over to spend a little time with them in morning before our party (will be akward and won't be the private one on one with them he is hoping for because some of our out to town guests will be there) but much better then trekking them back and forth.
He said he understands that my family or myself might not want him over though.
Now I feel guilty...go figure. We are going to talk later tonight when kids are asleep. Right now we are brainstorming, how to handle christmas.
i want so badly for him to just tell me he still misses me and still wants to work on reconciliation. (Like he did earlier in month) I should not ask right? Let him bring it up? I think I get vindictive when I hear he wants to move on. I justify it too. But I will go extra mile when I think he wants reconciliation. I guess its me being controlling and passive aggressive?
Me: 42 H: 43 Twins age 5 Physically Separated 7/2015
