LBH w/ a WXW after the D - now what

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Cali
Thanks for stopping by again. You are a big help. Imagery helps me too. I think the imagery for me at this time is that I have a classic car in the shop that has a special place in my heart and life. I knew I was willing to restore it until the D was finalized last week. Now I've thrown a cover over it. I haven't pulled it to the junk yard but the professionals are saying they aren't sure it will run again. If she decides she wants to restore it I'm not sure I want to drive it again. In the meantime I'm test driving newer models. Not sure what I'm looking for but not in a hurry to settle on anything.

Dating......I'm not sure I'll call it that yet but maybe just hanging out. Enjoying the company and enjoying being treated respectfully. Enjoying spending time with people who want to spend time with me. Who appreciate spending time with me.

My emotions keep trying to catch up with me. So far I've been able to outrun them most days but I know I'll have to deal with them eventually. Hoping to just make it through the holidays and until she's out of the house before I truly let them flow.