I sometimes wonder if it would be enough for me to spend a few days a month with him and live separately forever.
I have been always an " all in " kind of woman. When I was with someone, they pretty much became my world. I wanted to do everything with them. Now I realize that was very co-dependant behaviour. I really want to break that cycle. I gave everything I possibly could in my Marriage and it drained me. I know my H can not give me more than he is right now. I have accepted that.
This is not how I thought a marriage should be, but for now I guess mine is. I live my life, he lives his. We see each other for a day or two every 2 weeks. We talk on the phone once or twice a week. It feels more like dating than a marriage.
What a strange world we live in.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
