do nothing or what

[roist]

It is time for change.I am going to make the most of this Christmas and ensure my boys enjoy it. I will try my best to enjoy it but I am not in a happy place.

Next year (next week) I need it to change. It is time to really move forward.I feel like just opening up to W, saying my thoughts on the situation, telling her I won't carry on like this indefinitely. I am even contemplating asking her to move out of our room. I have always bottled my emotions. I worked on me to beat my depression and I got in touch with my emotions. The new me wants to be open emotionally. This is no longer about saving M. I want to be me.

I don't think opening up will change our situation but I just want to let it all out. ALL. Then I back off completely and move on for me.

Obviously I still want to save my M, or I would not be posting here.

Otherwise I could just move on without saying anything. But that is more of the same behavior.

No battery left. So got to go.