I wish he was being a douche. That this was some mlc he might come out of, but fact is I spent 12 years being a scared little mouse, always hiding behind him while he was drowning in stress. I can only blame myself for this. It's doubtful I'll ever meet a man of that caliber again. I'm so ashamed. I could have had everything. But I threw it away because of fear. I hope I can forgive myself.
