I think the trap is that you fall into allowing her to blame you or otherwise take her frustration out on you. That seems to start the cycle from this vantage point. And I wonder if you are part of that dynamic in some way? I dunno, just asking.
I recall in the past, as 2.0 Cali, that you would not accept that blame even for a minute. Back when you were more detached.
I get it though. I figured that as you get closer, the old dynamic is a serious risk. For you both. Kind of like old LSD trips coming back as you lose weight and the fat cells release what they stored
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."