I went 7 ... yes 7 nights on the couch. 2 of these W kinda half way suggested I come to bed .. the last one I replied that I was good, respecting her space.
So as I noted Bad night Sunday .. NC/dark Mon-Wed ... Wed night she softened up a bit. Thursday night I had a GAL night with some sales guys and went to a Brewery (180 for me). Friday home ... PMA and all about just going with things. W sharing a bit here and there planned to see BIL Sat informing me she would be out all day and then needed to do errands Sunday. I was upbeat and planned things with S. Well plans fell through and she had to reschedule her trip to Sun ... again .. no problem I went about my plans as normal. Saturday morning woke early and cleaned up.(I learned in the past 6 months her father would wake every Sunday and vacuum, drove her nuts but it was something she grew up with .... one morning I did this out of the blue and she was glowing all morning so I have been doing this since) I then grabbed S, we went out shopping a bit, came home and organized his room ... I even fixed his lamp that has not worked since W moved into this place. W was much nicer but still standoff-ish in a way. Sunday W woke early for her trip, I was up walking the dog, she asked for me to take a cooler to her car for the trip .. then walked down with me and gave me a big hug .. I told her drive safe and say hello to BIL for me, reminded her I wrote to him on a card and she confirmed she had it. That day S and I went to church, Shopped a bit .. just a total boy day, that night I took him to a Christmas party (another 180 for me as I seldom do these things) W beat us home and was texting a bit throughout the day. We got home, showered and I put S down, she looked exhausted and went to bed. Monday, usual routine ... however during a hug session between S and I .. W joined in. Was nice ... I later received a hug in the bedroom as she told me about BIL. I STFU ... listened .. validated and in my mind prepared my speech for the DB achievement award. I left and wished them a good day. That day W was texting a bit .. even called just to chat, I was very PMA as was she ... we had a nice fun type talk. Later that night she was not feeling well ... I took care of S, dinner/shower/wrestle and put him down, walked the dog .. told her she was welcome to the remaining lasanga and joked that I know she stole a few slices (she laughed as she admitted it) She share she was not feeling well, was cold and asked me to come to bed with her... I kept her warm and we fell asleep. This morning .. more of the same, I went about my stuff, resisted the urge to pursue but did kiss her neck telling her I was attempting a new medical technique to help her out ... wished her a good day and quickly left.
SO things have come around slowly, the ice is still thin.. I feel that but I know what works, just need to remind myself to stay right here, keep doing this ... GAL, PMA, I really do enjoy MY LIFE at the moment .. do I want more .. sure, do I need more .. yes .. but I still want it all with my wife and right now she still has a long journey to walk and she will finish when she does, if history is any indication .. she will be late on this one too ...lol.
Looking forward to Christmas ... Oh and M, I have not seen StarWars yet, we have 3 perfect seats and will be watching it Sunday morning 10:00
