Hi, I wanted to give an update, a happy one. Life can be so much better than I would've imagined. Happy holidays to all.
There was a day I stopped 'seeing' my ex in crowds. Finally a week passed and I had stopped dreams of him. And then, about a month later, a friend told me of a convo they'd had, which normally would have left me spinning. And I just didn't care.
So the next day, around Thanksgiving, I signed up for a dating service. Met a lot of toads. But I learned I wasn't the divorced pariah I thought I'd be! And one day, about three weeks ago, someone special came into my life and now I am feeling things I would have been amazed to know I could feel after this year.
It was about this time last year I joined this forum. I thought I was losing the greatest person in my life- ha! I thought my life was over and I'd never stop hurting. Blessed clarity.
This year, my date for New Years is a handsome man, a doctor who is kind, hysterically literal, warm, one of the most intelligent people I've met - and he knows he wants to settle down. We are both excited about where we feel things going.
Even if nothing comes out of it, I've had a month where I learned how much I really do have to still offer and that I'm very much not dead.
All my DB friends that may still be here, I hope the same for each of you in the coming year!
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
