Recent Hurricane

[NateG79]

By accepting her thoughts, I was just validating that she has decided that she's not in a place to talk about us, and what her feelings here are. That's all. I wasn't going to press, or beg or anything about the relationship. There was only passive mention of D, in the context of, well if we can't get to a better place, then maybe we just D.

Ironically, as you say Sandi, I'm the one that has a much more active social life. She doesn't really have any friends, she's never been good at cultivating friendships. She has acquaintances at work, but she only goes to 1 bar, and would never go there alone. She said things like "I deserve better, my heart is hard because I was neglected". Things like that. I know A's tend to burn themselves out. The only D she's ever mentioned is an uncontested divorce, because she simply doesn't have the money to fight it out in court. And probably why she hasn't talked much about filing. It may very well be that she's trying to play this out and then come back when it doesn't work out. I have actually been very busy with friends, getting the house ready for Christmas. My biggest problem is just the waves of emotion that hit me when I think of something about us, or the void that is suddenly there where my W used to be. That is where my struggle is, and sometimes causes me to think to do rash things.