Star Wars was great!! Mandarin food overload last night as well.
My D had a bit of a hissy fit because she thought I was ignoring her at the theatre. Somewhat embarrassing, but oh well.
Now to my H. He broke down a bit and told me how much he missed me and how hard the past few weeks had been for him. He wanted D and I to stay overnight and have breakfast with him. We couldn't, I had made no arrangements for the animals. He asked me to spend a few days around New Years with him at his place. He has to work, but he wants me to come anyways. I will have to think about it.
No R talk, just enjoying time together. I did broach the subject of returning texts messages or phone calls....in a loving, kind, non confrontational manner, he agreed to be more considerate about that. Hope it gets through his head. Lol! No expectations. He actually called me last night after I text him telling him we got home safe. I was surprised!
I feel, the only way I can describe it "even" today. Kind of settled, not anxious or down, but not elated and happy happy either. Just ok! And don't get me wrong, just ok is good!!!! Just ok is perfect for getting the last few things done before Christmas.
As far as my H, I see a glimmer of hope. His bachelor life is not all it's cracked up to be. His happiness didn't magically return when he left me. He is missing having someone there that cares. I miss that too and if....if we were to R again then he would have to show me that he cares as well.
Again, no expectations! He has changed his mind before. I'm cautious. I enjoy spending time with him, but now I really don't mind going home anymore. I value my time alone and away from him.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
