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[vise82]

Hey,

Last night W worked late and kids were at ILs, The dropped them off at W work. So I picked them up at W work, I made sure I looked my best. W boss was not there. I was hoping she was so that I could blast all the bad stuff she has told her about me out of the water by being nice to her.

I took the kids to pick out a Christmas card for W. While I was out W texts me and says it would be great if I could clean her bathroom. Ok so she wants me to do something for her, so I make it flirty and joke with her via text. I like to think I have some skill with that. While dating we texted all the time. So of course I agreed to it and she agree to watch a movie with me again. She gets home and I put the kids to bed but its to late to watch a movie so we agree to try another time. Now my W turns me on, and when it get like this all light and breezy, I am turned on even more so. Now I don't want to pressure her so I try and take maters in my own hands when she is not around but its having the opposite effect, its increasing my drive. Its affecting my sleep and I am waking up calling out for W. She hasn't said anything to me at this point about it so I am not sure if she hears it. I am worried that she might turn this around on me and say that I am making it uncomfortable for her to be in the house when I am sleeping like that.

I will just have to take one day at a time.