dday, getting out of the muck

[dday]

I am sad that my M will officially be over with a judge's signature very soon. I will be glad to put this chapter of my life behind me though. I do still need to work on detaching more, but at least now it is occurring during our interactions. Before it was anything she was doing. I see her texting now, and for a split second wonder who she is talking to, and let it go.

I do not want this D. But, apparently it is the path we have to walk for a while, maybe forever. I still love her, always will, but at the same time I am disappointed that we have come to this. That she quit. Still think she is trying to cake eat by sitting near me and trying to talk.

I spoke to a coworker yesterday, who a year after his D had his XW move back in with him. He said to just go live your life, don't be mean or stupid, and she may decide to come back. Don't hinge your life on that. Don't pass up opportunities to have fun with buddies, or even date. That is how it worked for him.

Seems like simple, sound advice.