Thanks Sandi. I was thinking that she may be delaying until the holidays are over but I guess we'll just have to see what the New Year brings. I feel I've been doing pretty good with GAL. No hanging out with friends or anything like that, but I've started going to the gym on a regular basis and going out for walks for about an hour each night. She keeps asking me questions about these things, such as, "Why have you all of a sudden started exercising?" I just try to keep my answers short and tell her that I want to get in good shape again.
As far as Christmas is concerned, I have been staying completely away from any relationship stuff. It's hard to keep a happy look on my face all the time and once in a while she'll ask me, "How are you doing?". I ask her to be more specific. Then she says that my energy feels weird today and asks if everything is okay. On one hand I can't even believe that she can ask such a stupid question. On the other hand I just want to deflect the question and act as if all is well. So I do option number two.
But she'll say something like, "Okay, I'm just trying to open up communication." What do I do with that? Do I keep pretending like everything is fine or do I take the bait and give her a little truth? I think I should just keep to myself as far as what's going on in my head. Is that the correct thing to do?