LBH w/ a WXW after the D - now what

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Thank TxHubby,
those are all very true statements. Nobody to check with is a very true statement. I do like be accountable to someone who loves me but not controlled and manipulated.

The person I "dream of being"........that's a good statement. My identity has been so wrapped up in who she expected me to be....not that it was bad.....but I don't know who I dream of being. I think I have a lot of guilt and I expect a lot from myself. Even though it was out of my control I think I'm feeling guilt for not being able to make the M work.

I know in my heart it takes 2 to make it work and she gave up. I'm really good with feelings so I'm not sure what I'm feeling. I know I'm in the dumps though