WW, My Addiction, Patience is HARD

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Isittoolate,

Thanks for the reminder.

Had a good weekend. Wife actually wanted to go out to eat with me, we did, but it was a bit awkward. I didn't talk like I usually do - I now know I talk more than my wife when we're together. Shutting my yapper and listening more.

Bought a bed for the basement.
Got a new cell phone, but it won't be to the house until tomorrow. Still, I'll have something to play with during Christmas.

My wife wants me to come with her and the kids to my MIL/FIL's place in Milwaukee Christmas Eve. It's a big change from a month ago - she wants me to be there.

I'm still not allowed to check the things for complete NC, but I can tell that she hasn't talked with him, at least she hasn't on her laptop. I'll be reminding her this week that I still need access in order to really move on.

I've gotten better at being patient. With some movement towards reconciling, I'm very aware of what I'm saying, and what I'm doing, but not trying to completely detach, as I need to be present with the W in order to show her I'm the guy she wants to be with.

My achilles tendon flared up last week - so I couldn't run or walk. Finally feeling better today - back to walking this week. I didn't gain any weight, though, so that's awesome.

My wife doesn't want to go to my parents place, which I told her I understood. The kids want her to go, though, and have been working on her about it. I'm staying away from that - she has shame for the affair, and will want to go when she's ready.

Wife has started working out and has lost 10-15 lbs, and wants to lose 50 like me. It's not a contest, but I'm doing all that I can to tell her that it's awesome, I can see changes, and that she has a cheerleader in that part of her life.