Thank you for your advice. That was the advice I got last time and I think I learned how to be my own rock. But I am just so tired right now.
But I made it through this mess last time by stopping my thoughts like I know everything best and following advice here, even when I thought I just cant. So i will try and listen again. this really really stinks that I cant use another person.
I guess since my family is the cause of my feelings of being unsafe, the practical thing would be to move away from them. I do not have to move to the moon. Even the house next door would separate me enough that I feel safe again.
The earliest I can do this is March. I can hang on until March. I won't feel safe, but I can survive until I do feel safe.
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
