Man what a heart wrenching post to read G. I'm sorry brother, what you're experiencing is awful. Gratitude will help, PMA will help, faith in God will help, but it's all still going to hurt - so let it.

My IC said last week that depression wasn't an illness, but rather a gift. That when you get pulled down to your lowest point of consciousness that there are gems down there that can only be reached in the depths. Just like the earth the deeper you go the more precious the stone...or something like that.

My heart goes out to you today buddy. It's ok to stay in bed. It's ok to be miserable. It's ok to cry into your pillow and want it all to go away. It's par for the course.

Just know there are a lot of people on this board who feel for you and are sending you love and strength.

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