Stumbling, or moving forward?

[SciDad]

Hey guys! Ready to rock out when you are! I hopped on to give a weekend update (not Kevin Nealon-style), but I wanted to say I'm excited to get a extra motivation for me to start playing guitar. I could use a good push . Do we have a band name? I'm thinking the "Get a Lifers," but that might be a bit lame....

OK Weekend update time. I avoided doing a R talk we went to look at xmas lights instead. We had a great time and really enjoyed ourselves. Spent the next day running errands for Xmas, so not all that much to report. I barely resisted the urge to look at my wife's phone (I was going to ask for consent first) to see if she was making plans for the OM during this week. In the end I decided it just didn't feel like the right time. Partially because I think my desire to look is fueled by paranoia rather than "spidey sense." Partially because I don't want to add to the holiday stress.

Odd thing - I get an strange vibe from my wife, like maybe she's trying to separate herself from the OM. Not sure if it's just wishful thinking, so I'll try not to read into it. I also noticed that she got back faster than I expected from running her errands and is handing me her phone to show me things. She seems to be sending out the signal that there is nothing to see on her phone, but I know it's possible that it's just deeper underground. She also plans to go to work and mentioned that she would take a pic of her desk to show me how messy it is. It's clear she is trying to alleviate my fears, but I refuse to read too much into her motives - it's WAY too easy to get too excited and hopeful. And for now it's just as likely that she's trying to send reconciliatory signals merely to throw me off the scent...

Patience is needed. But hard to find