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[vise82]

Hey OTW, isittoolate, Fogg, Free.

I wasn't gong to come back on this forum. I was afraid to read the replies, but its good I did. Thank you all for the support. I was really down.

Friday W came home and wanted to eat out. So we went out for dinner. It was nice. I was with the kids before the table was ready and she was texting someone, could have been her mother I don't know. We came home and we all watched a movie, I gave the kids bath and put them to bed. I asked W if she was watching TV (I asked her earlier if when wanted to watch a movie with me after the kids were in bed, She texted maybe) She said she was, so I went to the basement. Then she called for me to watch a movie. We put something on and it was boring and W starts to fall asleep on the couch next to me but leaning away from me. She hands me the remote and say for me to pick something, so I pick a action movie. She still asleep and I am frozen I cant touch her as all I can see in my head is her texting the neighbor telling him how I tried to touch her. But she invited me up to watch with her. So eventually she left to bed. I guess baby steps, but why invite me up to watch a movie only to fall asleep??

Next day was ok, W stayed home and baked cookies with one of the kids, I played with the kids and she went out to pick up a couple of things and to go to the gym. I go up to talk to her about a good gift for one of the kids and she is getting ready in her sport bra. we talk for a bit and I get nervous, then go back down stairs. later when she was out I send her a text about how great she looked, keep up the good work. I received no reply. I know DBing says no, but I am trying to break down this wall she has around her slowly.

W lets me know about the breakfast with Santa. This is something that we do every year with her side of the family of course, every thing we do involves them. This years I have two GAL activities and W doesn't even ask if I was going she just says that I cant because of my dog training and soccer. I didn't even think to fight to go, I just agreed that yes I do have that and cant go. But she lied about it saying that her mom just booked it three days ago and wasn't even sure it was happening. This thing books up and you have to book it months in advance. Then after I figured out what was going on, Her bosses family goes to the same event and she has been feeding her boss the single mother story full of lawyer fees to try and get a raise from her boss, it wont look to good if I show up and ruined that story for W.

Then after kids are in bed we wrapped up some gifts and then I went to bed before her.

Next day I have Two GAL activities, I And this is true with GAL activities they get you out of your low. I had soccer early and W texts me about how I left the house a mess. I guess between Gal activities she expected me to clean while she ate breakfast with her family?

So I get home and she get into it with me but I stop it right away by validating her, yes its not enjoyable to come home to a messy house. That was it, no augment. I cleaned up the kitchen ect then helped wrap more gifts, But I had a headache and had to lay down near the end. W took care of the rest on her own.