dday, getting out of the muck

[dday]

Rainy Monday. Back to work. But, my mind isn't really on anything here. Having trouble with some far-fetched hope that she will suddenly leave her fog and come running back to me. Fantasy world. I know that I will always love her. Probably hope for R until I fall for someone else.

S8 told me last night that he is sad. I told him that he can talk to me or W anytime about anything. Or his grandparents or aunts, etc. He said this sitch is just very hard for him. I'm sure it's the truth. S4 is acting up constantly and S7 isn't the loving kid that he was. They fight more often. It breaks my heart to see them hurting.

This sitch svcks. Sorry having a blah morning. Hope everyone is doing well