The new place is starting to get there. It's a bit of a nightmare in as much as I have a lot of stuff to still unpack and I need to organise S10's room before things will start to feel normal. I have a list of DIY things that need done (this will be my GAL for a while) and I have some time off between Christmas and new year where I intend to get as much done as possible.
He and I are starting to get into the new routine and when he's not around I have friends I can spend time with. It's been good albeit the circumstances aren't the best.
I was thinking about this the other day. This is the first time in my entire life I've lived alone. Ever. And when S10 is with me I have to be mum, dad and play mate all at the same time. True story. Yesterday I was painting the livingroom, ironing clothes for the coming week while preparing the evening meal AND packing lunch. And while relaxing later on I have my computer on organising bills. So yea, I can do it.
As for the Ex W we've been in touch quite a bit lately over the selling of the old place. The new owner is trying to take advantage. I don't try to seek her out at all and when she communicates with me it's obvious she's trying to friend zone me.
For me I'm doing way better now. I still think about my sitch but I can put it at the back of my mind much easier now. I do look forward to the future. In fact I was looking up cookery classes just before lunch. This will be my new year goal as I really can't cook and I'm starting to think of summer holidays for S10 and myself. Last time I discussed my sitch was when I was with a friend and HE was the one that brought it up. Not me.
I also get the impression my ML isn't happy with what's been happening. It's too vague for me to describe but if you knew her you would know what I mean.
Also, when I'm on my own at home it's actually good. I can eat what I want. Watch what I want on TV or not. Sleep when I want or go for a pint after work if I feel like it. It's liberating in a lot of ways as my Ex W was very controlling but in such a subtle way you didn't know it was happening. But it was.
So things are great. I feel fantastic and I have all my responsibilities under control. I'm really looking forward to the new year. New year and new start.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
