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Mutatio, your daily interactions with your W are hard to deal with. Each sign of disrespect or act of indifference or pure coldness are all minor in the scheme of things.But their constant consistent and on going nature really weigh up. If you let it happen each such act will add weight to your burden,which is already too heavy.

Although not to the same extent I have dealt with similar poor interactions.Over time every such behavior reinforces the certainty that there is no hope.

And thirdly after such a prolonged exposure to this it us normal to not want to put up with it any longer.

Before I add anything I will reiterate that I understand your pain and it is normal. But this leads only to resentment. Resentment affects our thinking, which affects our behavior. Our behavior affects our interactions and being resentful can show and shows W a reason that she is right to not treat you right. Viscous circle.

You have a few options:
1. Find a way to not be affected by it. Change focus. Maybe list positive aspects of still being together. There are many no matter how lousy things are. Go ahead and think about it.
2. Stand up to W and let her know her interactions are disrespectful and cannot continue. This is a dodgy one, but if you can do it without being controlling or demanding, it could help regain some respect or maybe just some adjustment of attitude. As long as not done negatively it is an option.
3. Rethink your 2 year timeframe.I feel this also weighs on you. I can understand why you prefer to wait for your son to graduate. That is noble and great but you can never support another two years unless it is for you. Rethink your reason. It needs tobe about you and what you want.
4. Get back to basics. Detach, gal and really work on improving you.Focus on you.

I rambled a bit and don't have time to refine my thoughts.Hope some of this makes sence.

Enjoy this week regardless.