dday, getting out of the muck

[dday]

Today, I dropped off the boys, and didn't move away from the car. Let her come to me. I answered her questions, and asked her what I needed to know. She ran in and brought me a gift I had ordered and had delivered to the house, and then again to grab some fundraiser stuff I need to deliver. She was very happy and waved at me as she was walking back in smiling and said "see you tomorrow".

If we were dating, and I left her that way, I would have considered it a great interaction (minus any gesture of affection).

So, I left and my mind went to "maybe this is best. Maybe we are just supposed to be friendly now and that's it." I don't know that I like this line of thought. Feels like further than letting go. More like giving up. Maybe this is what I need to get to? Self preservation? I'm not sure.

Is that the next step? Is it normal? (Fogg, I cycle too) not sure these feelings will hang around. Not really too sure about anything...